Sunday, 13 August 2017

A Few Days By The Sea | Devon 2017

Earlier in the summer, I went to Devon for a few days, it was the perfect mini break as the beaches are so picturesque and the place in Britain that is the most likely to have beautiful sunshine and it definitely did. I completely de-stressed and it couldn't have been so I thought I would share the photos as my first photo diary and relates to my Summer Bucket list I posted back at the start of July (Linked HERE).


Why I Stopped Blogging

This time last year I noticed a change in myself. A change I couldn't understand, but I lost all motivation to go out, see friends, do work and things I enjoy. I sat around, going through the motions of the day without really remembering or thinking about what I was doing. 

I then had to begin going out to sixth form every day which definitely worked in my favour opposed to the summer where I had an excuse to be lazy. But then I began to do the opposite, I still didn't do things I didn't have to such as school trips and going out on the weekend but this was because I put so much pressure on myself to do school work and other tasks such as blogging. There was too much. Two blog posts a week, studying for A levels, work and battling whatever was going on with no motivation were incredibly hard as I then beat myself up over the smallest of things.

So as everything I was doing began to disappoint me as I am such a perfectionist and if I did everything I would end up having a result of 50% rather than a 100% effort. I had to take control and get my life back and prioritise all that was important to me which at that point was my A Levels as I had to think I had tried my best. However, I still couldn't concentrate fully so my attention was forced to be moved to my mental health as I had anxiety and it was dramatically affecting my happiness no matter what I told people. So at this point, I went back to doing nothing, I limited everything I did for a while to get my brain back together, for example, my blog posts had gone from 2 a week to at this point 1 a fortnight but the only way to focus was to stop altogether. I also did this for revision, I spent a week doing absolutely none. Both were a huge risk as I could never have regained motivation but for me, it put everything into perspective. My mental health improved so therefore so did my physical health and I could concentrate on school more effectively.

However, through this, there was one thing I forgot about and that was my blog. Some people would say that didn't matter, it's just a hobby. But I have worked at this for about 3 years and I wasn't about to let it all fall apart. But I put off doing it and could get absolutely no motivation. Luckily I had a few pre- prepared posts which instead of filling my old schedule of a month I rescheduled to over three months so it looked like I hadn't dropped off the face of the earth.
Despite that, to dishearten me even more because I hadn't promoted on social media there were very limited views only reaching 2,000 which is low compared to what I was used to seeing. Even though everyone claims views don't matter but really everyone wants some kind of gratification for the effort it takes and it was taking me a bloody lot of effort to get my computer out let alone actually write something of a high enough quality to post.

So today after months of contemplating sacking it off or rebranding or pretending it never happened I hope to start producing content but I'm not promising they won't be sporadical as I'm still not completely inspired and I definitely will be rebranding my now happy little corner of the internet.


Sunday, 9 July 2017

My Summer Bucket List!

I did one of these posts last year and as I sit here I am one week into my summer holidays and have not yet got around to doing anything remotely exciting except work, work and more work. Last year I nearly completed my whole summer bucket list bar a couple which at the time was impossible for me to complete so I thought why not do it again. It's my last school summer holiday so why not have the time of my life. *Begins to sing like Dirty Dancing*

Go somewhere I have never been before
There are some many cities in the UK I have not yet visited but at the same time much of my hometown I have lived in constantly for 18 years of life is probably undiscovered so this summer I will go places, see new things and experience everything there is to offer.

Go on holiday with friends
There is currently one in the planning process (if we can ever decide where to go) which I really REALLY hope happens as I know it would be the best few days ever. 

Go to the beach
Now, this is just a summer must!

Pass My Driving Test
This is my biggest goal as I know if I do this I will be able to go anywhere, be free with little restraints but it seems to be harder than I first thought it would.

Visit a safari park
This is a bit of a random one but my whole life I have wanted to go on safari and this summer that would be unrealistic to think of but I have never even been to a safari park so I need to go!

Go horse riding
This was on last years bucket list and I did a short beginner ride for an hour to see if I liked it and I loved it so this time I would want to do a more scenic route and learn to gallop rather than just a slow walk.

Go on a zip wire 
I love the adrenalin of adventure sports and I have one quite local so I am determined to go on it.

Read some books
I cannot remember the last time I read a book that wasn't for A Level English and although it has kind of put me off staring at a page of words I want to get back into reading as I have so many unread ones on my bookshelf.

Have a picnic
Again, I'm sure this is a summer essential!

Like reading I can't remember the last time I did this even though it is possibly one of my favourite things as I find it so calming and a great way to get away from stress.

Collect memories
Last summer I started a photo album, this year my parents bought me a scrapbook for my 18th birthday as my adult life began I can document it and I hope to stick to it.

What's on your bucket list?


Sunday, 2 July 2017

All About The Urban Decay Naked Heat Palette

Well, if you haven't heard about the Urban Decay Naked Heat Palette you must have been living under a rock as I think everybody and their grandmothers hyped over this when Urban Decay dropped it the other week. I got mine in the presale on the 12th June but never got round to it because exams *yawn* leaving me wondering whether it was even worth doing this post as everybody already knows about it but I took a heck of a lot of photos of the beauty so it just seemed essential.
 So before I get started with the gorgeous colours, I will give the boring details out. I am not one to usually buy expensive makeup as a drugstore gal through and through so this is my first Urban Decay Naked Palette as although the others are stunning none struck me as 'my perfect palette' but I love a good burnt orange and warm tones so at £39 I went for it. Even though I am still contemplating my life decision as it was mid exam season where I treated myself more often than I should of and is now the most expensive makeup item I own so I will take the price into consideration as I go through. 

First up, the packaging. As I expect all Urban Decay palettes come, it arrived in a box. No surprises there. But the aesthetics of the box and the palette itself are gorgeous with the orange and amber hues which just scream summer which I am all for but it is quite heavy meaning the practicalities of it for travelling aren't the best.
 Onto the shades from left to right:
Ounce: The perfect white shade to set the lid.
Chaser: A cream shade also perfect to set the lid.
Sauced: A warm taupe great as a transition shade
Low blow: A slightly darker transition shade
Lumbre: Possibly my favourite shadow as it is slightly duo-chromed as it is a shimmery amber but slightly copper, slightly burgundy which I find changes depending on what colour or light it is in.
He Devil: Burnt orange for the crease.
Dirty Talk: A gorgeous amber shimmer
Scorched: A pinker toned shimmer
Cayenne: Great for deepening the crease
En Fuego: A deep burgundy
Ashes: Appears more purple but is actually a dark brown great for further deepening the crease or smokey liner. 
Ember: A dark brown shimmer.

I would say the colour selection is beautiful and perfect for anyone who loves a warm smokey eye however it is virtually impossible to create a soft, light suitable look and I would have loved a copper shade but I already have a thousand and one in my selection so it doesn't bother me. However, the pigmentation of the matte shades are probably the best I have ever used and the shimmers appear beautifully. They also have an incredible staying power even without primer and blend out so well. However, I would say the shadows are comparable in quality to my Zoeva and Smashbox palettes which were £20 so I am still left contemplating whether the price is a tad over the top.

What do you think of the new Naked palette?


Sunday, 4 June 2017

Fun & Bright OOTD

As soon as I saw this pink leather skirt I knew it would be the perfect addition to my wardrobe as I love a piece to make a statement but I knew styling it would be something where it could go very well or very wrong but these two tops have been my go to's and where it at every occasion I find as I am obsessed. The black top is a high neck from Miss Selfridge and a bit more appropriate for the cooler spring like days whilst the white lace one from Primark transitions from cooler days to hot summer like days. I also pair this with either a pair of Chelsea boots (which I try to get away with all year round) or ballerina style slip on shoes. 

The Skirt: Link HERE


Tuesday, 30 May 2017

When One Door Closes Another One Opens | Moving On

'If you're brave enough to say goodbye, life will reward you with a new hello'

On the 26th May 2017,  an exciting, tiring, bumpy road ended as I left high school after 7 years attending the school I can only praise and thank it for making me into the person I am today but like all good thing's I began to enjoy it most just as it ended.

I began high school like most in Year 7, I was small, shy and seriously unprepared. I remember walking in on the first day just wishing I could be back in primary school with all my friends and the safety I felt walking in through the doors opposed to that first day where everyone and everything appeared loud, big and scary.
I was in a form where I knew nobody and as I sat and looked around I felt that nothing would ever be right again. I know, a bit drastic but I hated and still do hate... CHANGE.
So there I was sitting in the big hall waiting for the new scary principal to walk in and I began to cry. Luckily no one noticed otherwise knowing how cruel children can be to each other everything could have turned out a lot different. But then I met Becky, she was confident, caring and we quickly hit it off and remain best friends to this day and from that moment on I gradually came out of my shell. I made more friends, grew in confidence, began to accept myself, gained new interests and hobbies making me into a happier person. 

Of course, there have also been the upsets, the bumps and the knocks to my confidence. From friendship fallouts, heartbreak and pressures socially and within education but once I made myself realise it happens to everyone and more than likely it won't even matter in a weeks time let alone a few years I took every day as it came. I spent so many days worrying about what people thought of me. If I was pretty enough and what if no one liked me but we have all gone through it and there is really no point stressing over the ifs and the buts. 

I have had some pretty nasty friendship fallouts with a few ending in physical fights which I am completely not proud of but I don't think I have ever parted on bad terms, whilst one person, in particular, I am now back good friends with which I am so glad about as I do truly believe forgiveness was important. Whilst I have only ever had one boyfriend over my high school years it was very long term which I am so glad I experienced but did destroy me as a person for quite a while when it ended that I can only admit now as it was a huge change and reality check that I found very hard to cope with.

Then there are the pressures which I want to focus on a lot so might go into further in a separate post but of course, there are the social pressures, to be pretty enough, to get a boyfriend, to go to all the cool parties. But what if that's not you?  What if you don't conform to society? What if you don't want to conform to society? I definitely didn't but it took me a very long time to stand up for that myself and it definitely made me gain the confidence I have now. Luckily my school is accepting, our morals, our ethics are what we are proud of and I will always remember that but we all still want to be accepted right? 

But I want to focus more on the bump that came along at exam season and my anxiety.

I have anxiety and panic attacks.

It's definitely not something I speak about regularly. I see it as my weakness. It shouldn't be as it makes me braver and stronger every day but without the help from teachers and two, in particular, I would never ever be where I am today and I could never ever thank them enough as I will always be eternally grateful which I hope they would know.
A number of times I have walked out of lessons, assemblies and even exams hoping no one would notice and run to the teachers I knew would understand me and I wouldn't be scared to cry in front of and wouldn't have to worry they would make my panic attack worse like others could. I'm embarrassed to say it as that's not the person I choose to show.
I show the confidence and the laugh it off attitude but as it got worse I cut myself off. I'm way more positive now but it's always there and will always tarnish all of my memories where a day could have been fantastic but was wasted with worry and then was further wasted as I beat myself up about it but there's nothing I can do about that so I will just look forward and try and carry on overcoming it.

So they're the good, the bad and the ugly. But you're probably also wondering why on earth I am writing all this. As I said earlier I hate change and this is one huge change. It's an experience I will never forget that contains some of my most precious memories. It was the place I saw some of the people that mean the most to me every single day. It represented safety and security when everything else was going wrong. I could rely on it always being there and the people inside always being there for me. 
I gained a new insight into the world. From the precious little boy who started in Year 7 as I was in Year 11, who I looked out for, for 3 years that made me burst into tears as I said goodbye, to the teachers always looking out for me, the wonderful friends and learning to accept myself and others like they accept me.

And now all of that is gone.

I have ideas of what my next step could be but have no solid plan whatsoever for next September as I am not going to university and currently don't have a full-time job to go to. I have no idea what results I will get especially with the fact exams are incredibly hard for me to do. I will lose all support I have ever had with my mental health and general well-being.

However, I still feel positive. And why?

Well, I look back to that first day in year 7 when I felt the same that nothing would ever be right and guess what? I couldn't have been more wrong. Secondary school was more than I had ever imagined it could be and I couldn't be happier with the person I am and my confidence to be myself. So what's to say the next steps not going to be even better. Even if it doesn't go exactly as I want I am going to trust in fate as I know I can't live life, based on the ifs and buts like in Year 7.

I have to move on and I am excited.


Sunday, 28 May 2017

Tips for Healthy Dyed Hair

I used to be the WORST at making sure I looked after my hair as I started to hate it. The length wasn't right, it looked limp, lifeless and just wouldn't do anything. To me, everyday was a bad hair day. But then I got an amazing hairdresser who sorted it out and made it look the best it possibly could getting rid of all the damage and giving me so many tips of how to make sure it never got as damaged and frazzled again and I took them and got into a routine (which I would happily do an updated post on). I then decide to dye my hair, which you can find a post on HERE, so looking after my locks to prevent fading lead to me testing out a lot of products including my hairdressers recommendations.
Tip 1: Colour Shampoo - As I dyed my hair blonde I have been using purple shampoo's but with dyed hair I think its very important to use a shampoo specifically for colour treated hair to prevent fading and most also give moisture to prevent hair looking dry. The first time I slightly lightened my hair a year ago I used Provoke's Touch of Silver Shampoo but to be honest my hair probably wasn't blonde enough to notice a difference or it just didn't work very well so I decided to branch out and use Lee Stafford's Bleach Blondes once a week which prevents brassy, yellow tones and I also finds brightens my hair. I also use John Frieda's sheer blonde treatment which gives the salon shine back to hair. This is also really conditioning and definitely brightens up the blonde even though the smell isn't the best.

Tip 2: Less Heat - I used to straighten my hair EVERYDAY. Which was incredibly bad especially as my hair rarely even kinks. I now never use them and to be honest hate the look of my hair when it has been straightened which I never thought I would say. I would say this tip applied to anyone but due to coloured hair being more dry it leads to higher breakage and damage.

Tip 3: Wash your hair less often - I hate my hair for the fact it gets oily super quickly and easily which can lead to washing it everyday which is very bad but I have managed to cut down to washing it 3 times a week (Monday, Wednesday and Friday) then occasionally in between if I am going out somewhere I need to dress up for. Dry shampoo is probably my saviour along with buns and plaits but washing your hair less will preventing the colour fading as quick.

Tip 4: Products - I get through so many hair masks, oils and hydration mists that my hair must be more hydrated than me. My particular favourites are the Garnier Honey Treasures Serum and OGX's hydrating coconut water. I usually put the serum on wet hair and the coconut water on when its dry and both make my hair so soft, shiny and tangle free which also reduces breakage when brushing and generally makes stronger, healthier hair. 

What hair hacks do you swear by?


Sunday, 14 May 2017

Dungaree Day OOTD

Dungaree's have quickly become my favourite thing to wear as they make any outfit look like you've put in a bit more effort than just jeans leading to wearing dungaree's on a daily basis. 

These dungarees are from Newlook for £28 with a frayed hem giving a distressed look but are a slim fit on the legs which I was super happy about as I could never find any skinny fit jean dungaree's instead of the typical 'mom' style which looks fab on some people but just not on me. I then paired it with a simple striped tee which maybe leads to me looking like an overgrown five-year-old but I absolutely love the look especially then even more casual with a pair of white converse. However, I did jazz up the outfit with these super cute cuff style earrings from h&m costing just £5.99. I am obsessed with wearing dungarees and make me feel like I have put effort into my outfit opposed to basic jeans.


Sunday, 30 April 2017

April Favourites

Usually I'm one to say the month has flew by but this month seems to have gone quite slow but it was actually really nice as I began to appreciate the smaller moments instead of letting life fly past but it also led to me loving quite a few things from makeup to random 'life' items.

The first thing I have been loving is the Rimmel Match Perfection Concealer which is amazing at concealing and highlighting under the eye. Although I know the brush applicator isn't everyone's favourite but I love how easy it makes application and the colour suits my skin tone perfectly. 

Secondly, another Rimmel product that if you have read my blog for a while you would know I'm an avid lover of the Kate Moss lipstick range but this one has sat in my draw for quite a while despite the beautiful nude tone. Its a creamy formula so is really comfortable on the lips and probably only needs reapplying once throughout the day. 

I have also been obsessed with Eylure Cheryl's First Date lashes, again these are something I had in my draw for quite a while until I looked through my collection as my friend wanted to know some more natural lashes and I realised why I loved these so much leading to repurchasing a few boxes just in case they get ruined or lost so they definitely deserve to be a favourite.

My final beauty favourite is the Lee Stafford Purple Shampoo which was recommended by my hairdresser when I dyed my hair blonde and so far it is doing a very good job keeping my blonde like its freshly done.

I don't often include a fashion favourite but I  have been living in dungaree's and specifically a pair from Newlook which are a skinny fit which I love compared to most which appear to always be 'mom' jeans which just do not suit me. I have been pairing it with a basic t-shirt underneath and it looks like I have put effort in every morning.

Onto random items; they of course revolve around chocolate as I really don't hide the fact I am incredibly unhealthy (even though I really don't promote it!) but you also probably won't believe that after 17 nearly 18 years alive I had never tried Nutella! I have been loving it with fruit and cannot stop eating it! Is there anyone else who just hasn't tried it or not until recently or am I just plain weird?! I have also been loving the slightly childish chocolate bar of Cadbury's Curly Wurly which I don't even know where my obsession came from but I there is now a constant stock of them in my house!

For tv programmes I have been getting into a few series in April however they have both sadly finished but available to watch on demand and they are Clique and Broadchurch. Clique is a mystery/drama about girls who go to university and everything in the Clique isn't quite as it appears. Whilst Broadchurch was the final series which breaks my hear as it is possibly my all time favourite programme ever and I recommend all 3 seasons.

What have you been loving this month?


Sunday, 23 April 2017

Drugstore Haul | Make up, Skincare and Hair!

 If you read my 'Current Drugstore Favourites' post (link here) you would know my drugstore obsession that got me into makeup in the first place was partly back since I discovered so many good items which led to a good splurge to see any products new in and repurchasing those old favourites.
 The first products just so happen to all be related to eyelashes. The first product I picked up and the initial reason for going to Boots was the L'Oreal Volume Million lashes mascara, I won't talk too much about this as I mentioned it in the post linked above but this is my favourite drugstore mascara due to the amazing volume and how it holds a curl. The waterproof of this is also fantastic. Due to my love for that L'Oreal Mascara and the fact I have been loving falsies recently I picked up the L'Oreal False Lash Architect Mascara which front eh description looks like it should add fibres and therefore volume and length however I haven't tried this yet so will probably update you in a favourites if I love it!

As I mentioned I have been loving falsies so repurchased my fave pack of Eylure ones which are the Cheryl First date ones which give a lovely natural look. I usually have to cut them down slightly but apart from that they are so easy to apply too. I also picked up an eyelash glue to test out as I love the one that comes with the lashes but felt a different brands may last longer and this duo eyelash glue has been very hyped about across the blogging world so I can't wait to try this.
 I also picked up a the Collection Lasting Perfection Foundation as I love the concealer and this claimed long wearing and high coverage which are two things I look for in a foundation. I have only used this twice since buying it and although it lasts a fair while it does need setting a tiny bit on my forehead about half way through the day especially if I have been at work. I also love the fact it contains SPF as it is heading into summer. 

I also repurchased The Body Shop Tea Tree Primer as I use it everyday as its the only primer that doesn't break me out. It also helps the appearance of my makeup look better overall.

I was after a new under eye concealer so picked up the Rimmel Match Perfection Concealer which I have started to use and has quickly become the one I reach for on a daily basis due its amazing coverage and highlighting. I wouldn't use this on blemishes though due to the highlighting aspect but it doesn't cake or crease and blends out super well.

Finally for makeup I picked up the Eylure Brow Pomade in Dark Brown and although I am now starting to think it is too dark from the swatch I did I have heard good things about it and for only £8 is a bargain compared to the Anastasia Dip brow pomade. 

I also picked up some haircare and skincare items including the Colab Dry Shampoo which is the only one I will ever use as it smells gorgeous and doesn't feel to heavy whilst still hiding any grease but also giving texture. I also love the fact it's invisible as with dark roots the ones that leave a white residue are a nightmare to get rid of.

I also repurchased my favourite body wash from The Body Shop in Satsuma as the scent is perfect to get in the mood for the summer. On the same topic of body products I picked up the L'oreal Gradual Glow which is great if like me you are scared to go straight in with fake tan and prefer one that gradually builds. The shade is also perfect for my skin tone and doesn't go patchy or orange. 

Finally i picked up the John Frieda Sheer Blonde conditioner mask which claims to make blonder hair more shiny and like its fresh out of the salon so I am very excited to try this as I am on the hunt for products which will make sure the blonde doesn't fade too much too quickly.

Have you tried any of these products? 

Sunday, 16 April 2017

Summer Primark Haul

Primark has some amazing bargain's at the moment so I decided to update my spring/ summer wardrobe with quite a big shop however everything is of course unbelievably cheap and as always I am seriously impressed with the designs and quality!
I was after a nice pair of shorts as I had none at all and knew if I didn't grab any quick all the good ones would be gone. The shorts were £4 and the fabric is lovely and floaty whilst the detail on the pockets and the hem makes them look so pretty.
I also went for a few basic items including two t-shirts both costing around £4-5. The striped one is made from the softest material and looks fab with jeans or dungarees. The second one is more of a grpahic tee which I don't usually go for but I loved the colour especially half tucked into black skinny jeans. I also decided to try out Pirmark's jeans as I have started to hear a lot about them and I completely agree the fit is amazing! I have also been obsessed with sweaters and the colour of this one is gorgeous and super soft for only £5! I definitely recommend picking one of these up in your next Primark splurge as there were loads of colours.

As I'm getting my wardrobe ready for the summer I picked up two playsuits as they are my go to when the sun comes out! The first one is more of a day-to- day on the beach sort of look with a lovely aztec print and halterneck style which is possibly my favourite neckline. Whilst last but not least my favourite item I have picked up for a very long time is this floral one which has floaty half sleeves  and more of a v-neck which could easily be dressed up or down.

I definitely recommend popping into Primark as they have some amazing pieces!


Sunday, 2 April 2017

Current Drugstore Obsessions

Well I'm typing this hoping there's at least one of you left after abandoning this blog for a few weeks and I don't really have an excuse except for a lack of time and just my brain not wanting to write a single thing after the mass A Level workload and just not being in the right frame of mind in general for anything. But I am back, maybe a bit randomly and not regularly but I'm trying and today's post is current drugstore favourites as recently I have seemed to abandon all my high end makeup and became obsessed with a lot of old favourites and a few new goodies.
 LA Girl Concealer- I ordered this of Beauty Bay a few ago and the shade put me off from using it as it looked slightly dark for my ghostly skin and therefore orange, however, I had one of those killer spots which just don't disappear and hurt like a *****. You know the ones I mean we all get 'em. So, I pulled this out and it's magical, it just made the spot disappear. I was right about the shade being dark despite getting the lightest but when I blended it out it just matched my skin tone but I don't think if you're paler than me it would work as well. It's perfect for spots as its very high coverage and doesn't cake on blemishes. At £3 I was amazed and its definitely my go to for those very bad skin days.

L' Oreal True Match Powder - I am one of those people who swore by Rimmel Stay Matte Powder during the hype and long after despite feeling like it no longer suited my skin type and caked up quite a bit I just couldn't break away from my first 'love'. BUT... I branched out and OMG this is amazing! I  don't have the oiliest of skin now I am out of the 'main teenage stage' so this still gives my skin a healthy dewy look but my makeup stays on all day and no longer cakes in my t-zone or beneath my eyes.

Seventeen Contour Powder - I have used this on and off since summer until I got the Benefit Hoola Bronzer but I forgot how good the contour shade is in this duo. I'm not so keen on the highlight mainly because it's not shimmery so I don't really get the point to use it to highlight on a daily basis. However, the contour shade is perfect for my skin tone and can easily be blended out but also built up.

L' Oreal Volume Million Lashes - My hairdresser always had amazing eyelashes and of course as I'm always on the hunt for new products I asked and she used this and it's the perfect mascara. It adds amazing length and volume whilst also separating lashes but can easily be built up to a bit more clumpy (in a nice way). I also find as I have the waterproof formula it holds the curl so much better.

L'Oreal La Colour Nude (Beige) - I am usually a bit picky with drugstore shadows as I often find they lack pigment, unblendable or can be a bit chalky but the shades in this were right up my street. I mainly use the matte browns and the shimmery brown near the end and it creates a lovely everyday smokey eye. The pigment isn't as good as a high-end palette in the shimmers however the palette is mainly made up of matte's which are amazing quality for the price.

Rimmel Lip Liner ( East End Snob)- If you have read my blog for a long time, this lip liner is something I have loved for a very long time as its the perfect colour to wear with MAC Mehr which is my go to nude colour. It makes the lipstick last even longer and is great for slightly overlining my lips. I also find the formula isn't too drying too.

What are your drugstore favourites?